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About five or six years ago, I went through a season where I struggled with depression, which included insomnia.
One night, I vividly remember sitting in a red chair in our bedroom, trying to pray. Yet, I couldn’t really focus on praying. I knew the Lord was there, but I still felt low and empty.
The radio was on, and it was then that I heard a song that touched me in a way nothing else could. It was “Blessings” by Laura Story.
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When my son, Clayton, was three years old, our local theater had a cheap summer movie series. They featured cartoon movies for just $2—and that included the popcorn!
Now, if you’re a new podcast listener, this might be a good time to tell you that I’m blind. And, by the third film in the series, I needed a way to entertain myself while Clayton and the friends we went with enjoyed the 90 minutes of cartoon silliness.
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I once made the world’s worst casserole.
Oh, girl, I am not exaggerating! The recipe called for milk, but I ran out and used buttermilk instead. Bad idea.
But, my sweet family tried to be so mannerly and gracious as they swallowed each sour, sticky bite! After all, it was Christmas Eve and they were on their best holiday behavior.
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When my son, Connor, was little, he had a new balloon which he insisted on taking outside.
“Connor,” I told him, “if we take the balloon out in the backyard it will probably pop.”
But he would not relent, so out we went.
He swept the brightly colored balloon up into the air, and it slowly glided downward. He caught it and repeated the motion several times.
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I remember the summer before I went off to college. My mom and I spent every day preparing me to go.
We shopped for a new wardrobe and bought furnishings for my dorm room, including a much-coveted rainbow comforter. I also spent several weeks in “mobility training”—that is, learning to walk with a cane so that I would be as self-sufficient as possible in my new setting.
Me: “Connor, I’m looking for my phone. I just had it. I can’t find it anywhere! Have you seen it?”
Connor: “Uh, um, Mom, isn’t it in your hand?”
Me: (Alarmed gasp) “Oh! I forgot I was on hold with the doctor’s office!”
Have you ever looked for something without realizing that what you were looking for was already in your hand?
Oh, girl, it happens to all of us! You know, we can search for our sunglasses just to find that they were pushed back on our heads like a hairband. Those are the moments we laugh and wonder why we are becoming our mother! Ha!
