God is just not fair. Have you ever felt like that?
I sure have. I’ve lived that sentence over and over again. In fact, I even wrote a book titled God is Just Not Fair (Zondervan) and within the pages of the book bears my raw, honest heart.
Here’s why I wrote God is Just Not Fair:
I was so tired of being blind. I wanted to quit more than I wanted to keep trying.
I desperately needed to know God was enough when my life was a mess.
I questioned everything I had ever believed about God.
I needed real hope because I had real pain and real questions.
I wrote this book because I am not the only one who has felt those feelings.
Writing this book was one of the most liberating and scary things I have ever done, because it is more honest and raw than I’ve ever been in a book before.
I wrote about experiences and fears and feelings and frustrations that no one in my family even knew about. In fact, that is part of the scariness… they will read about all the disturbing, troubling and difficult stuff along with you!
It is really hard to question God and still feel secure. It was hard for me to question God without feeling guilty for doing it.
I doubted His goodness, and then I even doubted His existence. Then I was mad at myself for doubting!
I was unmoored, unanchored.
I wrote this book because I am still tired of being blind, yet, totally comforted in my darkness by God’s companionship. I want that for you too.
I wrote this book because I don’t want to quit anymore. Yet, I don’t have to keep trying to feel better, be better. I want that for you too.
I wrote this book because when I most wanted to quit, God carried me and showed me how much He cared and that He could do in me and for me what I can’t do for myself. I want that for you too.
I wrote this book because God didn’t give me all the answer to my questions. God gave me something better…an encounter with Him. I want that for you too my friend.
I wrote this book because I’m convinced that God is just – not fair. He is just…right in all His ways. He is good, caring, present and knows how we feel when we hurt.
I wrote this book for you because you may too question everything you believe about God and I want to hold your hand and walk with you through the questions so you won’t feel insecure and guilty.
I wrote this book for you because you may desperately need to know God is enough when your life is a mess. Can I help anchor you through that confusion?
I thought I was writing this book for me. But, I think I also wrote it for you.
If you are stuck in questions of faith like why God allows pain, doesn’t heal, seemingly ignores your prayer…then I wrote this book for you.
If you want to understand more deeply Who God claims to be and why He behaves like He does… then you are who I wrote this book for.
If you want to feel more comfortable in the mystery of faith…this book is for you.
Your pain matters; your questions matter…you matter.
If you read this book and it reminds you that you can trust God; if it lets you take a deep breath; if it replaces just one of your tears with hope…then all the hard stuff I navigated that eventually showed up on the pages of this book is so, so, so worth it to me.
You matter to me, that’s why I wrote this book…
I wrote this book for people like us; real people with real questions who need real hope when life doesn’t make sense.
As you can probably tell, I believe in this book. I know how healing it was for me to write it, and I pray it will encourage you and your friends.
It’s available in my online store, or you can use these links to order:
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i will have to ck for it at library. I have been struggling with many different auto immune diseases &complications since 1998. I always knew God was with me and a reason and purpose for it all. but past Feb. i was dx with progressive MS. I have been bedridden for more than a year and the pain i have experienced has been more than anything i have ever experienced. side effects from infusions and still waiting on medication that may help me walk. we were approved past spring but mis comm. happened and it was canceled. now waiting again. we r very limited in income, have medicare but no supplement because cost is more than my husband and i make. in donut hole now and trying to get asst. with meds. I really need to read your book! Thank you for sharing with us! I know He is with me, but sometimes so isolated and alone. God Bless You and Your ministry
Hi, Jennifer, When you were in Brownwood, TX, I received such a blessing from not only your smile and presentation, but I also received new direction and encouragement in living my life with God to the fullest! I look forward to reading and sharing your new book. Thank you for being a warrior of God and His works in many hearts! You are a DARLING, both inside and outside!!! I praise God for your talents and stamina!
Pat Locks Krenek
PS By the way, God has provided me a new life in sending me the “right man” to share my life with! When you were in Brownwood, I was “Locks”; now my name has changed to Krenek and my life continues to be full of joy and love for God’s way of life!
Jennifer,
I did buy your book, God Is Just Not Fair, and I enjoyed it very much. I think I read it in 2 days. It did help me out a lot. Made me see things in a whole different way. I deal with daily pain, I have degenerative disc disease, arthritis, and I also have COPD. I had started to questioned God’s fairness, but after reading your book, I saw, and felt things in a whole new way. Jennifer, I have to thank you, for writing this book. I got so much out of it.
Again, ThankYou,
Charleen
Jennifer…..I met you on facebook when I read your wonderful message about your feelings towards my friends brother when he died. Donna was devastated when her brother died so unexpectantly…..and you talked about his helping you with a set up for your computer. I am going to order your book “God is not fair.” I have been asked many times “why does God let this or that happen.” I am thinking your book will have answers about our wonderful God…….and pain, Loved ones dying, people suffering, and people doubting God for these reasons. I will let you know how I feel about your book when I finish. Have a “great rest.of.the.day. !!! 0 I
Thank You so much Jennifer, I know this will be amazing an heart warming reading, God has been using Me as a Tool through many of my friends who have gone astray through my own experiances in life, an know this will be a wonderful gift to him to read, I will be going to Barnes n Nobles to find it in March, i love all your words of wisdom, God Bless You, a Friend April Swiney
I will look forward to purchasing and reading this book next week. I have been so struggling with my faith. I love God, I know I do but for the past two years I have gone through the hardest time in my life – Breast cancer. In February I had my second breast removed and then the real faith battle began for me. Last night I finally went back to church but all I felt was anger towards God. It is not fair – I have tried to avoid those words and feelings but what is the point of hiding them? God already knows.
Barbara, thank you for your honesty in sharing your struggles. It takes a lot of courage to face hard things. My encouragement for you would be to keep pressing on, going back to church, reading His Word, and praying. God will reveal Himself to you. Thank you for reaching out to me.
Jennifer always seems to hit the nail right on the head whether she is discussing everday challenges or monumental hurdles, we feel comforted not only by her sympathetic tone but also the life experiences that have given her the ability to impart her wisdom.
Not sure what you say in your book but I met a believer and from my end it was love at first sight. The only things we had in common were Jesus, epilepsy, and laughter. I didn’t get to know her well because I only saw her at 4 epilepsy support groups and at age 26 she died unexpectedly due to unexplained death in epilepsy. I was crushed and didn’t/don’t know how or why God could allow this. I have so many intense feelings I don’t know how to grieve and cope with the loss.
Micah, I am so sorry for your heartbreak and loss. Grief is so, so hard. I pray that this deep water will not take you under and drown you in sorrow. But, rather, God will use it to draw you closer to Him. Your love is safe in His arms and that is where you are safe too. Give Jesus your tears and pain and He will carry it with and for you. Keep trusting, my friend.
Hi Jennifer I too am questioning gods love for me. I don’t always understand him. I don’t understand why he allows people to be in pain and then many would say that God is trying to get our attention. As a nurse, I question him every day. I don’t understand him and have been going through this for years. Have I brought on all these adversities on myself because when I hurt I ask God to explain these things to me?
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Jennifer, thank you so much for sharing this book-I will purchase it. I have a rare blood disease. I led the women’s ministry at my church for 10 years, but gave it up because of my illness. I am very limited what I can do outside my home and where I go. I became a Christian when I was almost eight years old, and I strive to live my life for him. This disease has made me so much more aware of how much I need our great and loving God. I certainly have my hard times, but over the years I have learned to run to Jesus…He always puts my mind back on Him. Would I rather not have this disease? Yes. Have I seen benefits to this disease? Yes! He has opened doors for me to say His name and sometimes share how He helps me through the tough times with others like myself. He is all I need…I just tend to take my eyes off of Himat time, but He always draws me back. He has comforted me and shown me how to go deeper with Him and am constantly looking for ways to know Him more. I would not trade those times for anything this world could give.