You Are Not the Only One

I sat on the front row in the church and listened to another speaker — my friend – and thought, Why can’t I get it together like she has it together? My best effort is like pond scum compared to her worst effort!

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I had just presented a message before she did and I would present another message when she was finished. And, I didn’t want to stand on that stage and speak again; I wanted to shrink into the seat cushion because I felt totally incompetent and unnecessary at that moment. And then I felt shame for feeling that way at that moment!

But, here’s the thing. It wasn’t just at that moment I felt that way.  That moment describes lots of moments for me!

Break Free from the Prison of Self-Reliance

One thing I can see clearly through blind eyes is that self-reliance is not all it’s cracked up to be.

I used to think that if I could just rely on myself – if I didn’t have to depend on others – then I would experience real freedom.

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But, blindness just makes total self-reliance impossible. And, to be honest, sometimes dependence on others can feel like prison bars which keep me from the freedom of independence.