Wounded Healer

Middle-age affords some luxuries – the ability to make honest assessments and new choices. 

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I remember when I first felt such empowerment. It began the morning I sat upon the paper-wrapped examining table for my annual exam. I had sat on that table every January for the past six years, and each time, I felt the same chill and entertained the same thoughts. 

“I really don’t like this doctor.”

Then I would remind myself, “You don’t need to like her; you just need to respect her expertise.”

I argued back to myself, “She is cold and has no bedside manner.”

“She doesn’t have to be your best friend, just competent.”

Lace Curtains and Light

The lace panels cascaded gracefully down the length of our two living room windows.  When I was a girl, I went into my living room each afternoon just when the light was the softest to practice the piano.  The clusters of broken, patterned light would be strewn across the floor, bending to creep up on Mama’s old coffee table, meandering up to sit upon the burgundy upholstered Duncan Fife sofa and landing on the crème satin painted walls, spreading with stateliness like fine wallpaper.

I loved gazing on that light. I studied it, traced it with my fingers and tried to anticipate where it would travel as the afternoon ebbed.  It was interesting and delicate, soft and inviting.  I sat at the piano with my back to the light as I practiced, and by the time my thirty minutes had passed, the light that flooded my living room had shifted.  It was no longer tracing the path on the floor, on the coffee table, the sofa and wall.  Now a different pattern of light crept more closely toward the piano, blanketing the stool, illuminating a few keys and leaving swirls and broken fragments of sunshine upon the old walnut cabinet of the piano.

Do You Quit When Things Don’t Go Your Way?

As heard on KLOVE Jan 2010; Excerpted from Self Talk, Soul Talk by Jennifer Rothschild (Harvest House, 2007)

In 1991 I was invited to sing the national anthem for an Atlanta Braves game against the Los Angeles Dodgers.  Prior to that warm July evening, I had only sung the national anthem once publicly—at the opening of the little league season in West Palm Beach, Florida.  Let’s just say that first experience was a whole lot less intimidating.

“The Star-Spangled Banner” is a stirring, wonderful song, but no one has ever claimed it’s easy to sing.  I was so nervous.  I rehearsed madly, consumed bottles of Maalox…and then it was time to step out on the field.  A reverent hush fell upon the stadium as the players removed their caps, and Old Glory flapped in the wind.

I began. “Oh, say can you see…”

So far, so good.

Jane, Waco, and Leopard Print!

The New Year began with Connor staying up until midnight for the first time.  He shared sparkling cider with us and celebrated New Years Eve.  His profound comment after the ball dropped, we cheered and toasted our cider, was, “Is this all there is? Do we get presents?!”

2008 is the gift.  It’s a chance to start new, leave behind the old things and keep only what is wise and beneficial.  One thing I am definitely holding onto is my love for dead authors!

Jane Austen on PBSLately, I’ve been on a Jane Austen kick. December’s book was Persuasion, and this month, I’m reading Emma. How delightful that PBS is featuring her books on Masterpiece Theatre for the last and next few weeks!  You really must pick up one of her books or check out the series on PBS.  My next book of hers will be Pride and Prejudice – I’ll give you a ‘taste’ of it in next month’s Java.

A Divine Intervention from Dr. Phil

January has already made quite an impression on my soul! I feel like I’ve done a years’ worth of living in just this one month. It began with a fierce battle between me and my washing machine. I don’t think I emerged victoriously! Then, I traveled to San Jose for a filming for CCN TV. We had a great time and then afterward, visited The Dr. Phil Show.

Jennifer, with both of the "Dr. Phil's" in her life.

Jennifer, with both of the “Dr. Phil’s” in her life.